Music and Breaking

Billboard Charts: April 25, 2010

1. Help I'm Alive (The Twelves Remix) - Metric new! P:1 W:1 18

2. Heavy Cross (Fred Falke Remix) - The Gossip same P:1 W:4 45

3. Hide and Seek (Tiesto Iso Remix) - Imogen Heap down 2 P:1 W:3 38

4. Alligator (Passion Pit Remix) - Tegan & Sara up 2 P:4 W:2 22

5. Flashback - Calvin Harris ft. Ayah new! P:5 W:1 195

6. Bad Romance - Lady GaGa down 3 P:3 W:4 240

7. Map (Elite Force Remix) - YYYs down 2 P:5 W:4 78

8. Just Dance - Lady GaGa down 4 P:4 W:3 132

9. Dance In The Dark - Lady GaGa same P:9 W:3 145

10. It's Too Late - Dirth South vs. Evermore new! P:10 W:1 14

Boiling Under:

Telephone - Lady GaGa

Feel It In My Bones - Tiesto ft. Tegan & Sara

Blah Blah Blah - Ke$ha ft. 3oh!3

Believe - Cher

Starstrukk - 3oh!3 ft. Katy Perry

Music is based on some dance songs that I have recently found. Lady GaGa will probably have a resurgence next week.

So I am trying something. I am ignoring Matthew Sunderland.I want our friendship to fade. I am going to try my hardest to ignore him, and not engage him as a friend or equal. He does not deserve my friendship. He has never done anything to earn my friendship. I began it as a means to incorporate it into the theatre, and to explore my options. He didn't help me gain friends, nor has he given me anything in my life save for a few spaced Dr. Pepper's and grief. I am done. I am not going to confront him. I am just going to avoid him and be civil but distant. This probably won't work, but I am going to try.

I want this semester to proceed. I want this show to go up and all go well. I am far too worn out. BUT JAMIKA IS COMING AND IT'S GOING TO BE F*ING AMAZING! WOOOT SAUCE!

Hogswash!

Grrr... Why does everyone need to be crappy in April? Spring weariness? Lack of sun? I don't know, but I am sure tired of this bull. I am happy god dammit, no matter how much I complain. Why does everyone need to spread their shit around?

First point - Sunderland. (Who else?) Apparently his roommates have basically said that he can't live with him next year. Why? Cause he is Sunderland, and that would wear on anyone. So he asked me today to room with him. Ignoring the disastrous situation that was last year's planning, I had already snagged a Mr. Aerni as a roommate. Sunderland thus proceeded to make me feel like crap for rejecting him, even though I have known that I was living with Jesse for ages. Then he goes into how he needs to get a summer job, and that I should room with him on campus. I then bring up the point that Bree will be living illegally with me for a portion of the summer. He then pulls the better friend card on me. Pshaw? When did he think he had the gall to purchase one of those? Bree can be flaky, but at least she doesn't actively treat me like shit, and then expect me to be one her side a day later. This is the same exact bullshit that I get every other week from this boob. Why do I take it? I guess I just like to be punished. I don't know. God I want to punch him.

Second point - Theatrical weird. Nick and Andrew hate Sunderland, and vice-a-versa. Chris Forrer has become emo apparently. Will and Jess are an awkward couple. Chloe is gone. (Poopy, Chloe, poopy.) Ty is done with a majority of students. Janet is utterly apathetic and crazy. Everything is topsy turvy. I don't understand what is in the air. I am having a blast. I get to go shopping with Alethia, be a drag queen with lines in a play, direct something that I am terribly excited about; everything is going great. I even have a new crush. Not anything fancy, but something to preoccupy my fantasies in my gay-less world. People just need to learn how to be better humans. Fail, Fail, Fail.

Ironically I should be doing homework. I need to write my stupid history paper, I have a month, but I have a lot to do... Pshaw... (New favorite word, fyi.)

Alessa- I think Janet might actually recast Pinch, and you are really the only one who is available and capable and she made a point to tell me that she knows you would want it. I vote yes, yes, YES! We would have a scene together! I know you're busy with wedding stuff, but you should totally do it anyway. Time commitment would be minor, and you would have a ball. Hopefully Kriss Morton doesn't show up anytime soon! (I doubt it.)

Let's also talk about friends I have made these last two weeks. Bailey (who is very witty), Paige, Mckenna, Ashleigh. I can get almost any female to be my bossism buddy. I wish I had this skill with men...

A Ke$ha song invaded my life today. I am disappointed with myself... Blah, Blah, Blah...

Sparkle brightly me dear friends. I missth the days of our noon, but I know our stars will align again!

Plant

So... I did something devious this week. Nothing too bad, like bank robbery or online dating, but I totally did one of two things I thought I would never do. I wasn't peer pressured, I just was interested about what I would actually be like and I was in the safest setting possible.

To make the story short, I didn't feel much different from normal. I mean, I felt more uninhibited to say things, I couldn't sing What Is This Feeling properly, and I consumed a box of mozzarella sticks, a cheeseburger, quarter of a box of kix, a gigantic wheel of shrimp, and a large bag of rolls in an hour. I may have not done it properly, but everyone said I was, so yeah. I don't know what the big deal is. And it made my feet terribly cold for hours.

I guess everything around me was a little more funny. It just wasn't that eventful. I don't get the hype.

I hope all of you won't judge. Some of you can't or you would fuzzy hypocrites ;) , but the others... It was just a spur of the moment thing.

I don't know if I would do it again. Perhaps. Perhaps not. I still don't know what the big deal is. And I want to know why it is illegal, besides the fact that it makes you idiotic? I mean I wouldn't want people to drive, but you don't have people drive when their drunk, or they get arrested, or get themselves and others killed. I do think our country is idiotic.

The Fame Monster is the Best, FYI.

My family is strange. Nothing more to that, they just are.

Hope everyone is well!